Category Archives: The story

beating myself up for being human.

i mentioned going on a retreat for young women with cancer this weekend. spending time together with these women was transformative. they absolutely got what i’ve been through without explanation (we could skip the surface-level conversations and go right to … Continue reading

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drain down, drain down.

we have a lot of updates, so this is a very newsy post. i feel like a reporter. 3 weeks out of surgery, i got another fill up of the expander (kind of like a gas tank. fill ‘er up!). … Continue reading

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kidlets

i have a lot of time on my hands now, which is both good and bad. good that i’m starting to process a lot of what we’ve been through, whereas it otherwise feels i’ve mostly been levitating above the experience. … Continue reading

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goodbye…and hello

i have surgery on tuesday. at 730am i’ll go under, and they’ll remove my breast, replacing it with a plastic expander that i will have for up to a year after radiation, until my skin is healed enough for the … Continue reading

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pop goes…

the core biopsy machine! my breast gained 2 more titanium biopsy markers and some bruises on thursday. in fact it’s super swollen and the color of eggplant still today, with the steri-strips caked on. all completely normal, but all completely … Continue reading

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one lump or two?

to lump or not to lump? so many bad puns. but it’s more fun coming up with bad puns than it is figuring out whether i want to, or am ready to, lose a breast permanently. or navigating the various … Continue reading

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passing a mile marker

i don’t like running. i’m not into races. the one 5k i did with mike and our friend derek a few years ago was kind of painful, especially to watch the people who warmed up with a 5k before the … Continue reading

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on dying…or not living.

i can’t think of a better way to ring in the new year than to post about dying! not really, but i’ve had some space and time (on the couch, in bed late at night, on the plane) to have … Continue reading

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merry christmas / NOT cancer v4

if you’re reading this, it means we made it to the plane, whether or not mike carried me through SFO with my mask on remained to be seen sunday morning. i want to thank all of our friends who have … Continue reading

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hi.

“it is perfectly okay to lay face down and pissed at the world from time to time.” this message in a card to me (thank you, susan) was especially appropriate this week and is even more so today. in light … Continue reading

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