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In the dark times…

In the dark times, will there also be singing? Yes, there will be singing about the dark times. -Bertolt Brecht, from the poem “Motto” As we stood holding our dishes in the kitchen, Mike said, “you’ve been singing a lot … Continue reading

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dear California

Dear California: A love letter A dear john A complaint An appeal A review A letter of advice You’re such a righteous asshole. Like that ex-boyfriend who has a better life on Instagram. Surfing at sunset, the golden hours giving … Continue reading

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everything is impermanent.

Water flows west, no it only flows east. But never north, ever. Except, maybe, in the Nile. And into me. The tangled roots, stretching into the earth, through the now-calm crust – no longer trembling with the weight of humanity … Continue reading

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a reckoning

My college animal behavior class with Professor Hans. We learned about so many natural wonders – how the honeybees do their elaborate waggle dances, shimmying and swiveling in a figure 8 to give their comrades the precise location of the … Continue reading

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a grief observed

C. S. Lewis, A Grief Observed:  “Grief is like a winding valley where any bend may reveal a totally new landscape.” The switchbacks are dusty. Her eyes are bloodshot, the broken capillaries shooting flames. Her skin is starting to burn. … Continue reading

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15 years.

we met with my oncologist in early may, and the information has taken a month to sink it.  i pushed her for statistics, a timeline, something tangible to hold on to as i transition into new treatments. she didn’t dance … Continue reading

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hiya

i’m still here. i’m feeling stronger each day after surgery and am starting to ramp down pain meds. i’ve been waiting to post an update until after we received my final surgical pathology report. posting before then felt like jinxing … Continue reading

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checking in / a rant

we’ve been lucky to have so many friends and family in town the past few weeks–for laughter, seeing how whiz handles a 1-year old (best friends!), meals in and out, polished floors, tears, backyard sunshine, and shaved heads (my brother … Continue reading

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NOT cancer v1

canadian thanksgiving. i feel like i get to celebrate thanksgiving twice. the 20+ spider webs i counted in our backyard this evening. big or small spider, the webs are equally elaborate and somehow negotiated into every nook and cranny. kittens’ … Continue reading

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